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New Life in the Midst of Necessary Decomposition: Review of Elizabeth Schmuhl's听Premonitions

David Nilsen

搁别惫颈别飞别诲:听Premonitions听by Elizabeth Schmuhl (Wayne State University Press, 2018)

"In the cherry orchard I offer myself to the Earth.

She takes me.

鈥�

Slowly, I arrive."

(from 鈥�#14鈥�)

滨苍听Premonitions, Elizabeth Schmuhl not only arrives, but sojourns, seeking to become a physical fact of her own environment, and in turn to translate that environment for us in language both sparse and sumptuous. As she sinks into the isolation of a rural property far from human contact, her language assumes the frayed hemlines and feral tones of her setting. It is lush but lean, whimsical but unsentimental.

Premonitions听meanders through all four seasons, but spring is at its heart, with its vernal probing and multiplying of new life in the midst of necessary decomposition. This isn鈥檛 Millay鈥檚 spring 鈥渂abbling and strewing flowers,鈥� but rather the annual layering of new patterns of survival atop the previous year鈥檚 decaying failed attempts, cells dividing and scavenging life from those that lost it, green and black and blue, cutthroat and beautiful. In this ecosystem, Schmuhl positions herself as predator and prey, scavenger and carrion.

鈥淭he tiger lilies鈥� throats look so beautiful in the heat of noon. I

want to slice them open. I want to chew them hungrily.鈥�

These lines lead off 鈥�#64鈥�, though it feels a disservice to merely list the numbered titles of these poems, as each title is stamped upon a unique smudge of color. These numbers and colors hold deeper sensual meaning within Schmuhl鈥檚 synaesthetic processing, representing impressions drawn out in the resulting poems. 鈥�#64鈥� is housed in a circle of color somewhere between carrot and faded blood on cotton.

In the poem just before this, 鈥�#61,鈥� Schmuhl is on the other end of the food chain:

鈥淚 cut my heart open. It鈥檚 certain:

the meat of a halved dove still beating and bloody.

鈥�

I鈥檒l leave her out as an offering.

And then I鈥檒l watch, and wait.鈥�

It鈥檚 not all grim and gristle though. There are moments of airy light, of gentleness. In 鈥�#112鈥�, Schmuhl sits by a nearby river at midnight. The imagery early on is familiar in its loamy lack of sentimentality:

鈥淚 know where the tadpoles live. My hair dips into the water when

I reach my hand in. I scoop up some dark matter. Several small

bodies are wiggling.鈥�

The poem concludes though with this gorgeous moment:

鈥淚 lower myself into the river, open my eyes.

Here the moonlight is an echo. Here the moonlight is the loveliest.鈥�

There is a childlike quality to the way Schmuhl interacts with nature, hands dirty and clothes soiled, but it鈥檚 a childlikeness that embraces all of childhood. Those who remember childhood as a time of idyllic innocence lived a charmed or sheltered youth, or aren鈥檛 remembering clearly. Childhood holds loneliness, feralness, cruelty, blood. Our first observation of death. Our first awareness of fear.

Schmuhl often sets up idyllic expectations with her innocent set-dressing, but then skewers those expectations with a darker reality framed within. In these lines from 鈥�#24鈥�, she flits back and forth between the two: 鈥淭he snow is beautiful and I want to die. Who could / refuse this softness?鈥�

In a similar way, she often employs very literal, objective language that belies a deeper awareness of herself or her world. One very simple example comes in 鈥�#17鈥�, which begins:

鈥淚鈥檓 in a white dress. It鈥檚 dirty.

I go for walks in the peach orchard and pretend the trees are my friends.

The pretending doesn鈥檛 seem like pretending.鈥�

Often she seems merely to be a camera lens translating exactly what she sees, but the mood and tone of听Premonitions听as a whole allow the reader to lay a filter over these lines, seeing the intersections where the primordial and the poetic meet.

Even in the collection鈥檚 intense isolation, there are moments of human connection, though they often serve merely to highlight the poet鈥檚 disconnection from those around her. In 鈥�#80,鈥� Schmuhl writes to a partner no longer living with her:

鈥�...What can we do

to make sure the young fruit

doesn鈥檛 get eaten like last year

by the deer?

Hope, he says.

That won鈥檛 be enough.鈥�

In 鈥�#127,鈥� one of the book鈥檚 most poignant poems in which she seems to directly respond to Millay鈥檚 鈥淪pring鈥� mentioned earlier, she writes:

鈥淒ear Mom,

Dear Dad,

I picked the wild flowers.

They weren鈥檛 enough.鈥�

Though much of听Premonitions听uses a feigned innocence to cut through the pretension of a lot of pastoral poetry, just as often Schmuhl indulges a very adult sensuality in her visions of nature. In 鈥�#43鈥� she writes, 鈥淚 bite into a peach and understand / why you want so violently.鈥�

In 鈥�#59,鈥� the entire text of the poem describes the way she sensually interacts with an oncoming storm, her ongoing surrender to nature allowing for an electrically-charged erotic connection to the excitement of the sky.

鈥淚 feel the storm coming so I dress for the occasion: a black slip

trimmed with lace. The first time in so long I've felt luxurious.

I light candles and slow dance, sway my hips.

...

I am following the pleasure of the storm until I'm inside of it.

...It's thrilling

how turned on I've become.

...

I am the storm in my front porch and I am moving,

a threat to this home and everything in it.鈥�

Though Schmuhl revels in finding her place among wild things, angst remains, an underlying, whispering despair, an awareness that she can鈥檛 just hide away on this rural farm and pretend the rest of her life does not exist. The move to the farm might have been a desire to escape, but there鈥檚 a need also to escape that escape and its reminder that something has been escaped from in the first place. In the book鈥檚 final poem, she reflects on her role within the natural order, and the fact that as a human she can鈥檛 ever perfectly fit within it. There鈥檚 peace in the realization, but also deep melancholy:

鈥�...Will the birds

come for what鈥檚 left of me and how far from here

will they take me?

Let it be far and let it be soon.鈥�